I haven’t been posting much again. Sorry about that As usual, things have been a bit crazy.
To make a long story short – I had more surgery a few weeks ago. A hip replacement. (ugh) Prior to that I was working, & going to docs, & being busy freaking out about needing more surgery… let alone another implant… let alone another implant for a procedure that is also all over the TV lawyer ads for lawsuits just like mesh! It was very much like dejaPOO (I’ve heard all this crap before).
After my (complete) TOT mesh removal surgery with Dr. Raz in Jan 2013, I got a lot better. The recovery period was tough, but right off the bat I wasn’t in pain 24/7 anymore (huge plus!). I slowly started improving and could sit normal again without feeling like something was stabbing into my groin. I was able to get off all meds, and go back to work. BUT, my limp just wouldn’t go away, and then it started to get even worse. I kept hoping it just needed more time… more PT… and was trying everything. I did not want more surgery… but, last fall I had more x-rays done and they showed that I had NO cartilage left at all in my hip joint, the same side where all my pain and FBR (foreign body reaction) was after the TOT mesh implant. They recommended a hip replacement. I wasn’t thrilled… but, I decided it was that or look into a scooter because I could hardly walk, and I wasn’t ready for a scooter. I made sure to not get a metal on metal hip implant, and tried to really do my homework, but still… Despite my fears, I found the best doctor I could, and booked the surgery.
To make things much worse, my mother passed away unexpectedly about a week before my scheduled surgery. Suddenly, my worries about needing more surgery, money, my job, etc., didn’t seem to matter so much. It’s funny how things all change perspective when we lose someone we love. I’m still coming to terms with the fact that she is gone while I work on recuperating from my last surgery and trying to walk again. To say that I miss her, does not begin to cover how I feel…
I am now just over 2 weeks post op from hip replacement. I’m still sore in the incision and muscles area. It’s difficult to move my leg because they cut your muscles & all. I need to use a walker to walk & a strap to lift my own leg into bed etc. So right now, it doesn’t feel so good… But the pain is different than before & they are telling me I’m doing very well for where I’m at. I am doing in home PT for now & have high hopes that in a few more weeks I’ll be doing much better.
I sincerely hope that now that the mesh is out… AND my hip joint is replaced – that I will be able to get back to walking without a crutch or cane, and without pain again soon. It would be nice to be able to get around, and start living my life again. I have every intention of doing so.